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A Joyful Mother

Two years ago, I wanted nothing else than to be a mommy. I remember, at some point on my journey to motherhood, laying on the floor of our “nursery” crying and asking God for a baby. I understood all too well what Hannah was going through when the Bible talks about her weeping in anguish and pouring her soul out to the Lord (I Samuel 1:10 and verse 15).

As I was reading my Bible this morning, my baby girl, my child of promise, wanted to join in. She loves the Word of God and loves to be near me while I read the Bible aloud to her. Today, as she started grabbing at the pages, I saw Psalm 113:9 underlined.

“He grants the barren woman a home, like a joyful mother of children.”

I teared up as I remembered all the tears I cried, prayers I prayed, scripture I spoke, and how God was faithful through it all.

If you are believing for a baby, know that God wants to give you the desires of your heart. Every woman who asked God for a baby in the Bible had at least one baby. Speak the truth of God’s Word over your body. Pour your heart out to the Lord because He listens. He is good. He is faithful. Keep speaking His truth and watch the victory unfold. Keep praying. Keep believing, and don’t give up.

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Let Go & Let God

I have discovered a theme in my walk with God. That theme is trust. Trust is the number one thing God and I talk about. It’s the number one thing I struggle with. To be perfectly honest, I truly struggle to trust God in all things. God has never failed me, so I’m not entirely sure why it’s still a struggle. I know God is for me, and I know His Word says He is faithful. I know God’s Word is full of promises, and that those promises are all ‘yes and amen’, but I still struggle when it comes time to trust God.

Now that we’re expecting a baby (yay!), I’ll be quitting work to be a full-time mommy! This has been my dream since I was a little girl, and I’m so looking forward to it finally becoming a reality. Since Daniel and I were engaged, we made it a priority to be financial able to live off of Daniel’s income. We could have afforded to buy a bigger house, new cars, always have the newest cell phones and gadgets. However, we wanted to have the freedom for me to quit working whenever I became pregnant. We live on a budget and try to spend money wisely. Recently, I’ve started to get concerned about affording a newer and bigger house one day. We’re not looking for a new house, but I started realizing that prices had been going up a lot just in the last year. So, I started thinking, “How will we ever be able to afford anything else in our budget without a HUGE increase in finances, or without two incomes?” Then my husband reminded me that I had that same concern before we bought our current house. Two years ago when we were looking for a place to buy, I was worried we would never find anything in our budget unless we lived in a really bad neighborhood where I didn’t feel safe. The reality is, we live in a nice home in a great neighborhood and our house has all the things we really wanted – 3 bedrooms, 1 1/2 bathrooms, an attached garage, and in a nice neighborhood. It had everything we asked God for in our first home!

I am having to go back to the Word of God, and trust Him. I cannot think as this world thinks, or believe the lies of the enemy. I am being more intentional to take every thought captive and hold those arguments against the knowledge of God (2 Corinthians 10:5).

The Word says, “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?  Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?
So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; 
and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 
For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” – Matthew 6:25-34

Every time I’ve worried about something, and then made the decision to trust God instead, He has been faithful. Let go of worries and just let God do what He does best – Come through for us and remain faithful. Just trust what the Word of God says and see what happens.


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Nothing Is Impossible With God

“Lord, why does this seem so impossible?” These were the words I found myself asking God in my quiet time. There are things that just seem impossible. And maybe they are. Maybe in this world and in the natural things are impossible. There’s a limit to what can and cannot be done.

“Nothing’s impossible for Me.” , answered the Lord in a gentle voice. I was reminded that I serve a God who knows no bounds. He is limitless. He is not tied to the natural realm. I serve a God who can do anything. A supernatural God who creates universes with just His words. Isn’t it marvelous to just think about? When you look around and see what the words of God can create, it’s breathtaking. This is probably why God told Abraham to look up at the stars and try to count them… to remind Abraham who He was and what He can do.


God is so patient with us. He is not in a hurry. He doesn’t mind meeting us where we’re at. He is loving towards us and wants only the best for us. There may be waiting involved, but the promise is so much greater than the wait. The waiting is just our preparation time. It’s true what they say… preparation time is never wasted time. I’m learning to take this preparation time and just enjoy it. This is all part of the journey.

And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?” – Matthew 6:27 (ESV)

I can worry and fuss all I want, but it hasn’t changed anything yet! All of my fears, anxiety, and stress won’t do anything but make the waiting that much harder. When I just lean back and enjoy God… that’s when things feel different. True, the situation doesn’t change, but our perspective sure does. When I’m just thankful and rejoicing in the Lord is when the waiting doesn’t hurt. And it’s easier to trust God, let go, and let Him.

Next time you start to think your situation is hopeless and impossible, look up! Look up at the stars and be reminded of who your God is. Look up and remember that you serve a God who can do all things, and nothing is too hard for Him.

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When The Time Is Right

Sometimes when it seems in the natural that God has forgotten or isn’t listening to our prayers, He is really preparing it all for the right place and time. Don’t give up or lose heart. God is doing a mighty thing, but it’s not the time yet. Something special is about to happen, but timing is crucial.

To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven.”
– Ecclesiastes 3:1

This has been what the Lord keeps putting on my heart for several months. I keep praying. I keep believing. Yet in the natural I don’t see my supernatural provision, or my answer to prayer. God keeps telling me to hold on because He’s at work, but I’m impatient. I want it now! I want things to happen on my time, but God just keeps reminding me that He knows what He is doing, and that He has not forgotten. He has a much bigger view than I do. I see what’s behind and what is in the here and now, but He sees so much more. He sees my end from my beginning, and He knows what’s ahead. We don’t know how the things we’re praying for tie into something greater in His plan.


The Holy Spirit keeps bringing this verse to my remembrance, and this verse was the first thing I read this morning! I was browsing my Instagram feed, and saw this verse. God is so good! I am just amazed at how good He really is. He cares about even the small things. The things I think about and worry about sometimes are so trivial in the big scheme of things, but the Creator of the universe thinks they’re important enough to take care of just because it’s important to us.

So, my impatient self will rest in His peace knowing that He will make it happen when the time is right.

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Waiting For a Promise

Have you ever wanted something so badly it hurt? I have. Have you ever had to wait for something you want? I have.

I am.

It’s not fun to wait. No one enjoys waiting and yet we all have to wait for things. We have to wait in line, we have to wait for promotions, and on and on I could go. In life you will wait. So what do we do in this season? How do we wait for the things we long for?

What do we do in the waiting?


First, we realize that God is there. We realize and come to know that even in the trying times, the painful times, these times of waiting, God is there with us. We are not alone. God is by our side and He’s never left. Psalm 16:8 says, “I have set the Lord always before me; because He is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.” (ESV)

Learn to trust Him. We cannot truly believe God for something is we don’t trust Him. How are you going to believe God for something good if you don’t trust Him to follow through? Psalm 18:30 says, “As for God, His way is perfect; The word of the Lord is proven; He is a shield to all who trust in Him.” (NKJV)
God’s way is better than our way, His word has been proven true, and when we trust Him, He is a shield! Remind yourself of a time when God showed Himself faithful to you. I remember a time when I couldn’t find a job, then one day a job practically landed in my lap! I remember a time when my mom was dying and how I said, “Okay, God. I trust You. You are our healer and I believe it.” and my mom lived! I remember a time when my husband and I were trusting God for promotion and a raise, and I remember how we received both within a few months!

Trusting God is a lifestyle. You don’t wake up one day trusting God and never have to do it again. Every day we choose to trust God. We have many areas to learn how to trust Him in as well. We have to learn how to trust Him with our finances, with our health, with our peace, with each step and decision we make, we learn how to trust Him for our children, for our protection. And on and on it goes. It’s about a relationship with the Living God!

It takes time. It takes time to see the promises come to pass. There have been things in life that I’ve believed for something and saw instant results. Other things took a few days, weeks, months. I am believing for something right now and I have been believing for it for over a year now! Just because it hasn’t happened yet doesn’t mean it will never happen. God is patient, and we have to be patient, too.

(as it is written, “I have made you a father of many nations”) in the presence of Him whom he believed—God, who gives life to the dead and calls those things which do not exist as though they did; who, contrary to hope, in hope believed, so that he became the father of many nations, according to what was spoken, “So shall your descendants be.” And not being weak in faith, he did not consider his own body, already dead (since he was about a hundred years old), and the deadness of Sarah’s womb. He did not waver at the promise of God through unbelief, but was strengthened in faith, giving glory to God, and being fully convinced that what He had promised He was also able to perform. And therefore “it was accounted to him for righteousness.” – Romans 4:17-22 (NKJV)

God is willing and able. You have to know that God is not only willing, but He is able. “And it happened when He was in a certain city, that behold, a man who was full of leprosy saw Jesus; and he fell on his face and implored Him, saying, “Lord, if You are willing, You can make me clean.” Then He put out His hand and touched him, saying, “I am willing; be cleansed.” Immediately the leprosy left him.” – Luke 5:12-13

Jesus is willing! He is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we could ask or think, and it’s according to the power that works in us! (Ephesians 3:20) Nothing you could possibly ask Him, or even dare to think or imagine is too hard for Him. That power works on the inside of you, so let it out! Release that miracle working power in your life today!

Don’t give up. And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.” Just keep going to God, trusting Him, and do not give up on what He has promised you. God is your strength. With Him nothing is impossible (Mark 10:27). He is fighting for you, don’t be discouraged, and keep standing on His promise!


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Positive Thinking



What we meditate on, or think about, matters. Where our focus is can magnify problems, or magnify the Lord. If it’s not positive, don’t think it. If it’s not positive, don’t speak it. If it’s not positive, don’t see it. If it’s not positive, don’t listen to it. We have the choice to choose what we think about. Even when everything in the natural looks negative, we can determine what we think about. We can think about all things happening in this world, or we can think about what the Bible says. 

Lord, today I choose to meditate on Your Word. I choose to take my thoughts captive and magnify You. I choose to believe Your Word and the things You’ve spoken to my heart no matter what the physical circumstances look like. Today I choose You. Today I choose to be thankful. Amen.

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Jesus Is Lord!

-They commanded them not to speak at all, or teach in the Name of JESUS.- Acts 4-18 (1)

A church in Colorado Springs, CO is being told they can no longer use the name of Jesus in their advertisements on bus benches! I encourage us all, as the Body of Christ, to stand up against this. This is about Jesus. Mountain Metro Transit told Pastor Lawson Perdue (Senior Pastor of Charis Christian Center) he would not be allowed to renew his contact with ads that contain the name of Jesus. He was told he could advertise his church, but would not be permitted to use “Jesus” in his campaign anymore due to one complaint.

Pastor Perdue plans on fighting this because he believes (and is correct) that it is a violation of their 1st Amendment rights.

Make sure this same thing does not happen to your cities! Don’t be silent!

If you’re a Colorado Springs’ resident, please send emails to and call the Colorado Springs’ Mayor’s office at 719-385-5462.


Charis Christian Center’s Facebook response:

“They commanded them not to speak at all, or teach in the Name of JESUS.” Acts 4:18

They (Mountain Metro Transit) a division of the City of Colorado Springs commanded us (Charis Christian Center), not to advertise the Name JESUS!

The issue is: not that they are not allowing us to advertise, but they are not allowing us to advertise the name JESUS!

This is an attack:

1) On the First Amendment rights of all citizens of the United States of America.

2) On the Freedoms that we enjoy as citizens of the USA.

3) On all who call on the name of JESUS: including, but not limited to: Catholics, Presbyterians,
Baptists, Methodists, Pentecostals, and Charismatics.

4) On our personal and corporate faith as Christians (believers in JESUS).

Have a blessed week as we enjoy our Freedom!
Pastor Lawson 🙂
PS-Here is what some others are saying:

1) KRDO news 13 clip:…/city-prohibits-religious-mes…/40219370 

2) Blog from the Colorado Springs Independent: 

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What Is A Strong Woman?

It seems every time I browse the internet, TV, or any form of social media, I come across some form of feminism. Whether it’s a young woman venting on Facebook about her “belittling” moment at a home improvement store when the male employee asked her if she needed help carrying anything, or a news article about a teenager whose prom “dress” (I hesitate to use the word “dress” seen it was a sheer piece of fabric with jewels barely covering a few private parts) was inspired by Beyonce, or TV ad about equality, or women walking around naked holding up signs regarding their agenda. Whatever the case may be… I just have to wonder how we got to this conclusion. All of this because we as women are “strong”. Really? That’s how we’re defining strength now?

Is a strong woman really someone who has a chip on her shoulder? Is a strong woman really someone who mocks other women for being thankful to the gentleman who opened and held the door for her? Is a strong woman really someone who laughs at the little bit of chivalry left in this world? Is a strong woman someone who looks down on the stay-at-home mom? I mean…really? This is what we consider “strong women”?

It’s so sad to think young women look up to people like Beyonce and Kim Kardashian. It’s so sad that our culture has made them role models. When did classy become prudish? When did confidence correlate into nakedness? Why do girls have to become sex symbols in order to become strong, empowered women? And then complain when that’s all men see them as. (Okay, I’m getting off topic now). Since when did chivalry become belittling?

Well, the Bible says that a virtuous wife is worth way more than rubies. She works hard, serves, brings honor to her husband, has wisdom, and is kind. “Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing, but a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised.” – Proverbs 31:30


The definition of strong is: Able to withstand great force or pressure.

Just that worldly definition alone should tell us that today’s definition of a strong woman is completely wrong. These women who are caving into the pressures of today’s obsession with sex and equality are weak. It’s women who can withstand the pressure from culture who are strong. The women who refuse to lower their standards because the world says you must be a prude and lack confidence in yourself if you don’t sleep around and barely clothe yourself. NO! True confidence in yourself will only help you say no to this culture. Because you know you’re worth so much more. You know the skin you’re told to bare is a treasure that should be concealed. You know you are more valuable than being a sex symbol.

I know it’s hard. I’ve been there. I was the girl who started buying into the lies this culture tells us. We have to be stick thin, half or almost naked, and seen as a sex object just to show we’re confident. These are pressures. These are those great forces we have to withstand. And we can withstand them by seeking God. When we seek Him, and allow Him to show us our worth in Him, we can withstand anything. We are called to be over comers. We are more than conquerors through Christ!

So, in short, we need to know who we are in Christ in order to be strong women. We need to look unto Christ and get our value from Him. This is how we become strong women!


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The Free Gift

For the wages of sin is

We have been given a beautiful gift… life. Jesus Christ paid the price we could never pay. He took a punish He did not deserve and died willingly. Our sins cost us death, but God stepped in and took our place to give us His. We have done nothing, nor could we ever do anything to deserve this wonderful gift we’ve been given. It is not by our own doing, but by His. Stop looking at your own deeds, good or bad, and start looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith (Hebrews 12:2). No amount of good that you do will ever add to what has been done for you through His blood. And no amount of bad that you’ve done, or will do, will ever take away from His love for you. Eternal life is a free gift just waiting to be opened. So, open it today!

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God Is Not Creating Your Problems – Part II

Since my latest post, “God Is Not Creating Your Problems” I’ve received a lot of comments. Some positive, some negative, some indifferent and some very emotional. First of all I want to say that I in no way am intending to hurt feelings. I’m also not trying to force my point of view on anyone, or trying to debate people. At the end of the day, if you believe and accept Jesus, you’re going to Heaven. Period. I just believe the Body of Christ is largely missing out on some wonderful things God provided for us through the life, death, burial and resurrection of Jesus Christ. I also believe we’re greatly misunderstanding the nature of God and His Word.

God Is Not Creating Your Problems as well as this post, are not intended for anything other than expressing a different point of view. It’s for those looking for answers that they can’t find. It is not for debating or “making” anyone agree with me. I just want to answer some of the questions that came up because of this post. I said in my original post to please study this all out for yourself. Do not just take my word for it. Take what I say and find out if it all lines up with the Word for yourself.

“…He who has ears to hear, let him hear!” Mark 4:9


These were more fair-minded than those in Thessalonica, in that they received the word with all readiness, and searched the Scriptures daily to find out whether these things were so. Therefore many of them believed, and also not a few of the Greeks, prominent women as well as men.”  Acts 11-12


What about the sovereignty of God?
God turned over a lot of that power to man in the garden of Eden. In Genesis 1:26-28, God gave mankind dominion over the earth, and all things in the earth. Dominion means sovereignty. So, God turned that sovereignty over to man, essentially limiting Himself. Again in Psalm 115:16, we see that earth belongs to man. God gave us His word when He gave man dominion, and according to Psalm 89:34, He will not go back on His word.

Man also was given free will and God will not override the will of man. That would make God unjust.


What about Job?

Job did not have a covenant with God. Satan had total authority of Job whereas God did not. Also, if you read in Job 42, God tells him that he spoke wrongly of Him (vs. 7), but instead of cursing Job, or putting more hardship on him, God blessed Job! In verse 10-12 it says that God restored all that was lost to Job and blessed him in his latter days more than his beginning! That’s without a covenant, so now that we have an even better covenant (Hebrews 8:6) God is most definitely not afflicting us with hardship, grief or loss. Colossians 1:12-13 says, “Giving thanks to the Father who has qualified us to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in the light. He has delivered us from the power of darkness and conveyed us into the kingdom of the Son of His love.” There’s been a change. If by the cross of Jesus we’ve been moved out of darkness, then that means darkness must not be of not of God.

If God was allowing bad things to happen to us, then we would be wrong to ever go to the doctor. We would be wrong to ever fight against temptation since God must be bringing into our lives for our betterment. We would be wrong to protect our children from harm if God is trying to show them something. Could you imagine watching your child run into the street in front of a car and just sitting by so they learn to not do it again? Could you imagine injecting your child with a disease so that they learn to trust in God? Could you imagine your own mom or dad allowing someone to rape you so that you learn to forgive others?

Acts 10:38 says that Jesus went about healing ALL that were oppressed by the DEVIL. I said this in my original post, but I’m going to repeat it… if God’s will for us is to sometimes go through bad things in order to allow something better to come of it, then Jesus was totally going against God’s will. Jesus never afflicted pain, grief, or refused to heal someone. “And behold, a leper came and worshiped Him, saying, “Lord, if You are willing, You can make me clean.” Then Jesus put out His hand and touched him, saying, “I am willing; be cleansed.” Immediately his leprosy was cleansed.”  Matthew 8:2-3.

The only time Jesus did not heal someone or work miracles was due to someone(s) unbelief (Matthew 13:58). So, it’s God’s will for all to be healed, delivered from the devil, darkness, etc., however, our own unbelief can hinder it from happening.


Romans 5:6-11, “For when we were still without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. For scarcely for a righteous man will one die; yet perhaps for a good man someone would even dare to die. But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Much more then, having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from wrath through Him. For if when we were enemies we were reconciled to God through the death of His Son, much more, having been reconciled, we shall be saved by His life. And not only that, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received the reconciliation.” Verse 9 says that we have been saved from wrath and verse 10 says we’re no longer enemies, but reconciled and saved.

James 1:13-18, “Let no one say when he is tempted, “I am tempted by God”; for God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does He Himself tempt anyone. But each one is tempted when he is drawn away by his own desires and enticed. Then, when desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, brings forth death. Do not be deceived, my beloved brethren. Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning. Of His own will He brought us forth by the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of His creatures.”

Acts 26:18, “To open their eyes, and to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan unto God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins, and inheritance among them which are sanctified by faith that is in me.”

Luke 9:56, “For the Son of man is not come to destroy men’s lives, but to save them.”

I believe with all my heart that God has only good intentions for us and that He would never do anything to cause us harm. He is a good father. Good fathers don’t abuse their children. I know sometimes we find peace in believing that God is doing something good in the midst of all the pain, but it’s so much sweeter to recognize that Jesus already won the battle for us and that we have the victory. We can stand up and believe His Word and rest in His peace and goodness. The peace I have knowing that God is not afflicting me, but instead helping me walk out the victory is much greater than believing God would allow it to happen for something good to out of it.